The desire to become parents really takes it toll not only on the couple being my husband and I but people around us. The week began all excited to see my fertility specialist since now he is the only one that I believe can help us so he is our saviour. I am excited as it just awesome to see how amazing medical science has come and that they can help us on our journey to become parents.
This meeting was a follow up from my operation two weeks ago which was a complicated laprascopy, cystectomy, hysteroscopy, right tuble salping ectomy ie removal of right tube. Very complicated but my right ovary was saved and left all ok including tube.
Now we visit to be refreshed on our next steps ie two more injections of Zolodex then onto FSH injections for IVF.
As anyone is on IVF journey, something always blows you out of the water and yes being 32 and told I have little eggs left was a major setback but then I remind myself all it takes is one egg and just because they can collect 12 - 15 from others does not mean that all of them are good.
Anways after getting over that shock, we then realise our holiday for May needs to be reschedule to allow for IVF to take place and mind you we cannot put it off as Zolodex is temporary menopause and it can be dangerous to stay on it too long so it has to be then and FS said I cannot have normal menstruation in case cysts or endo comes back
We were travelling with friends on this holiday but now had to tell them the news, it was an emotional part for me partly due to hormones I am on and I have to tell another person our private details.
Friends on one part were being insensitive at first but alas after breaking down and few phone calls, they come to head to understand a little bit more of our journey.
It took a big blow to my husband and I and to amend our relationship and to let our friends know it is difficult and please understand
So in summary our holiday is now rescheduled but we will be going just us two, perfect just before IVF to start and the other couple will continue with their original travel dates.
Im on the up now but still trying to heal my wounds internally from the laprascopy.
My mother and sister have been so supportive and my mother in law during this time. Very understanding and my sister used the words " I want to wrap you up in cotton wool" to protect me from the outside world of continual questions of "when are you going to have kids?" I do not really feel like telling everyone my whole life story of yes we are trying but it aint that easy for some
Over and out for now
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