22 weeks ....can it really be?

Every day and every week and every milestone of this pregnancy is so memorable...I appreciate every minute and every second of it no matter the highs and lows...I love being pregnant and as us infertily women know how difficult it is to get to this part of being pregnant...how could you not appreciate and thank the universe and god (as however we all see him) for giving me this gift... Im an emotional personal when not pregnant but being pregnant oh boy does it make you even more sensitive....I can cry at the drop of a pin..then laugh 5 minutes later... I love that I now can feel my baby live inside me with its beautiful kicking and punching...and even hubby has had a chance to feel...its those little things that remind me everything is ok I have one of the most adorable nephews who is 9 years old and who wants to follow my pregnancy week by week...he is an only child ( but in between I am wishing for him and praying he gets a brother/sister)..I have to email/sms him to tell him what size of fruit is baby this week? how adorable is that? He even tells his friends and neighbours that he is so excited about me having this child...He is one special boy not that my other nephews and niece are not...but he has a special gift (a grown man living inside a child's body I say).. Its having people like that around you when your pregnant that appreciate your pregnancy as much as you do that make it that so much more special PS in between, facebook announcement went well..I feel good now that it is out ..there were still some people who I thought would comment on my photo and picture ie I put a picture of me I posted prior on this blog with 21 down 19 to go written.... UPDATED Today I had a wedding which was a beautiful wedding in fact in beautiful location..however I had to see one of my relatives who is pregnant as same time asme (she is due 11 days before me!!!) for her 5th pregnancy!!!!! and she is only 1 year younger then me...and nothing is wrong with big family but something is wrong when she is not allowed to have in her care any of her children and has a mental disorder from drugs.....so this pregnancy is not a welcomed one... I found it real difficult to face her as I celebrate our pregnancy with my family ....I could see she was jealous but I did not care...I could not be mean but I actually feel sorry for her....that she feels the need to have more kids...and you know what her reason was to keep her company...to me its so much more then that but then we are all different...it was hard to face especially when I wish it was my sister pregnant with me instead of this relative....but thats not the universes plan...and I bless this baby as my relative continued to drink and smoke today whilst pregnant !!! My husband even said you were stand offish to her and I know I was because how can you compare anything in our lives..how can you compare the pain and grief I have had to get this child when it has come so easily to her ..I could not give her the joy that I am having for myself...I did say congratulations because she said it to me and Im not a total bitch but all I can say is our parenting skills will also be nothing to compare I wish her all the best for this pregnany and the safe arrival of her baby and that it endures a fulfilling life because this baby aint gonna have it easy at all.. but the classic was when this relative said to me have you had a boob job? Im like what the F****? Umm its from the pregnancy I have big boobs because Im pregnant like this is your 5th time..should you know that?? Bless her bless her is all I can say....

Can Facebook handle the news?

Thank to you all my supporters and dealing with my momentarily crazy rants... Well push come to shove and a friend had written something on my facebook wall re my belly getting bigger.... and to not offend anyone else who are friends of mine in past from either work or school who do not know the news.... I thought this has to be the opportunity now...I cant keep it hidden.... I cant lie that I dont have any news so I spreaded the word My hubby didnt want me to announce it on facebook as he wanted to keep it private but why cant I celebrate with the world...The timing is perfect I wasnt ready to rush to tell facebook at 12 weeks...facebook didnt deserve to know but I privately sent messages to those close to me of the news....as I felt comfortable at that time...and in between the joy of telling people you know in person is so much better then facebook so I had to allow time for that too... I was overwhelmed with emotions each step of this pregnancy and this pregnancy deserved the respect I wanted for it....the whole world did not have to be plastered the news at 12 weeks....I was not going to be the typical facebook pregnancy announcement..thats not me (not to say any of you who did shouldnt of....this is just how I felt) but with me getting bigger and photos taken couple of weeks ago and passing 20 weeks I think Ive left it long enough...so I did Hope you are all proud of me....Overwhelming of emotions as I did it this morning....as its obviously been a struggle for us..but facebook dont need to know that...all they need to know is Im happy and pregnant and enjoying every day and every moment of it Love to you all

Colour choices for Prams..help

Oh my goodness who would think this post would be about choosing pram colours I finally decided on the pram I love and we only have limited colours to choose from...and I quickly rushed and ordered it the other day (second time viewing) as sale was on and wanted to get it at the great price...however I am now regretting colour choice possibly Here is colour I chose (its called diamond white but more bone/silvery cream colour)...I got this in the bassinnette option too...the only other colour Ilike is the boring conventional black (it also comes in red and purple but I dont like red and hubby doesnt like purple) Possibly thinking leave bassinette in the white colour but change pram seat to black...but am worried about black fading but also concerned about how easy to clean the lighter colour If keeping the lighter colour clean was not an issue I would choose that over the black BUT what do I do?? With this pram I also get a second seat thrown in for free in the package which i wanted to match same colour so possibly black too? Or would it be good to have one in black and one in diamond white so when white gets too dirty swap to black? I know this is most likely the silliest of questions and Im obsessing over pram colour choices but with huge $$ spent on this baby jogger city select I want to make the right purchase/ Any other potential mothers or mothers have an opinion in which choice of colour? UPDATER After not being able to sleep for 2 hours and some more sleep and talking to my dearest mum...I have decided to stick to the colour I love...have read from other forums ladies with same colour and said its easy to wash and you can use seat liners if you ahve to feed them in it....decided I dont want to put my baby in black not a nice colour if you are into colour therapy for baby to be surrounded by and this colour is neutral So lesson learnt...do not stress over colours go with your gut instinct and dont write blog updates early in the morning when you cant sleep

My baby belly 19.2 weeks

Hey there Well my good friend is doing photography course and wanted to use me as her project but we had to cancel due to rain coming so instead my beautiful hubby decided to take some pics of me around our garden at our house Let me know what you think, I wish my blog was private so I could show my face Im worried that non infertility people might come across my blog

and one of me with my furry baby girl

and another one of my favourites (note, my hubby now thinks he is a professional photographer and was even doing commando rolls to get some photos crack me up

and by the way....I am contemplating putting a picture on facebook but I am yet to tell facebook world about our pregnancy...dont know if I want to yet or ready!!