22 weeks ....can it really be?

Every day and every week and every milestone of this pregnancy is so memorable...I appreciate every minute and every second of it no matter the highs and lows...I love being pregnant and as us infertily women know how difficult it is to get to this part of being pregnant...how could you not appreciate and thank the universe and god (as however we all see him) for giving me this gift... Im an emotional personal when not pregnant but being pregnant oh boy does it make you even more sensitive....I can cry at the drop of a pin..then laugh 5 minutes later... I love that I now can feel my baby live inside me with its beautiful kicking and punching...and even hubby has had a chance to feel...its those little things that remind me everything is ok I have one of the most adorable nephews who is 9 years old and who wants to follow my pregnancy week by week...he is an only child ( but in between I am wishing for him and praying he gets a brother/sister)..I have to email/sms him to tell him what size of fruit is baby this week? how adorable is that? He even tells his friends and neighbours that he is so excited about me having this child...He is one special boy not that my other nephews and niece are not...but he has a special gift (a grown man living inside a child's body I say).. Its having people like that around you when your pregnant that appreciate your pregnancy as much as you do that make it that so much more special PS in between, facebook announcement went well..I feel good now that it is out ..there were still some people who I thought would comment on my photo and picture ie I put a picture of me I posted prior on this blog with 21 down 19 to go written.... UPDATED Today I had a wedding which was a beautiful wedding in fact in beautiful location..however I had to see one of my relatives who is pregnant as same time asme (she is due 11 days before me!!!) for her 5th pregnancy!!!!! and she is only 1 year younger then me...and nothing is wrong with big family but something is wrong when she is not allowed to have in her care any of her children and has a mental disorder from drugs.....so this pregnancy is not a welcomed one... I found it real difficult to face her as I celebrate our pregnancy with my family ....I could see she was jealous but I did not care...I could not be mean but I actually feel sorry for her....that she feels the need to have more kids...and you know what her reason was to keep her company...to me its so much more then that but then we are all different...it was hard to face especially when I wish it was my sister pregnant with me instead of this relative....but thats not the universes plan...and I bless this baby as my relative continued to drink and smoke today whilst pregnant !!! My husband even said you were stand offish to her and I know I was because how can you compare anything in our lives..how can you compare the pain and grief I have had to get this child when it has come so easily to her ..I could not give her the joy that I am having for myself...I did say congratulations because she said it to me and Im not a total bitch but all I can say is our parenting skills will also be nothing to compare I wish her all the best for this pregnany and the safe arrival of her baby and that it endures a fulfilling life because this baby aint gonna have it easy at all.. but the classic was when this relative said to me have you had a boob job? Im like what the F****? Umm its from the pregnancy I have big boobs because Im pregnant like this is your 5th time..should you know that?? Bless her bless her is all I can say....